• Now is what you have. Allow the moments to unfold. Your time here is a gift. Cherish the the all of it. Notice. –Elin Stebbins Waldal
This is not now but this is a place I go to help me center and return to the present.

This is not now but this is a place I go to help me center and return to the present.


I like making New Year’s resolutions because I usually aim low enough I can keep them. You know, like resolving to not commit a violent crime. That was super easy to keep. Or the year I resolved to not eat canned cream corn. Again…the bar was set low so I could succeed. But a few years ago I started putting the bar a little higher just to push myself a little and move away from my comfort zones.

Wow, I’m gonna have to do some fancy dancing to top 2014 for moving out of comfort zones. I may have to jump off something—wait I did that already. Or I might need to move away from a place I’ve called home for almost 3 decades. Yup, that’s done. Here’s the scariest one of all: I could fall in love and build a relationship with someone.

So now what?


2015’s one word resolution.

I will live in the moment and when I catch myself fretting over what I don’t have I will realize everything I have wanted in the past I managed to manifest in my life.

I will trust the now. I will trust no matter what is happening that moment of now, even if it’s a big shit sandwich is part of a divine unfolding. In other words, I will dance backwards and maybe even close my eyes while I do it.

I will tell my monkey mind: “Thank you for protecting me with all these thoughts of the future but I’m living now and I don’t need to worry because I’m taking care of that issue, I promise.”

I will live in the moment and when I start beating myself up for not being good enough or smart enough or whatever enough I will move forward from those yesterdays to the now.

I think that last one is going to be the hardest because I love replaying old tapes from yesterday or three decades ago and raking myself across the coals. Sometimes self-flagellation seems like a hobby.

I need a new hobby.

Enjoying and savoring who I am now feels like a healthier hobby.   But I need a little help from my friends. Please drop an affirmation, thought, mantra, or phrase in the comments to help me stay in the present moment.

About Laura

When my nest emptied I moved from the big city to a little big town to tend to a ramshackle yellow house on the edge of town. These are my Yellow House Days.
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6 Responses to Now

  1. You are perfect, just as you are. The Creator made sure of that.


    • Laura says:

      It’s taken me 50 plus years to realize that and now I have to accept it and own it. Isn’t this exciting? This new year we have in front of us. Like a big blank piece of paper in a Big Chief tablet!


  2. Haralee says:

    The present is real and very inviting. Happy New Year!


  3. Karen says:

    Nicely said! Happy New Year,


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